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well, it does sound pretty nice to me.

i think we could arrange for a backrub beforehand. seems pretty doable!

also, you didn't answer my question, myungie.

it sounds pretty nice to me too.

what question?

okay, then we'll have to make it happen. i already miss you, you know?

the one about how good it looks. i know i said i was kidding, but i guess i am a little curious.

yeah, i feel that too. i miss you too. you wanna come over, tonight? can you?

oh

oh, well, when you're on top of me like that, sometimes it's like... it's like you're glowing. sometimes you dig your fingers into my chest and it's like i'm seeing god. you clench your jaw and tip your head back and it's the kind of image i wish i could put to music, because it's the most beautiful thing i can ever lie my eyes on

how's that?

i can. but i might be a little late. is that ok? i'll come as soon as practice is done! the second i get out, i'll come right to you.

wow.

i mean, really. wow. that's a lot. you're quite a poet, myung. i mean that! i'm dumbstruck!

yeah, that's fine. tell me when you get out, and i'll order us some food.

i'm pretty sure i'd write terrible poetry, but i tried my best. no words can do you justice, though

something that'll fuel us up, ok??

you wouldn't, you'd write great poetry. that's part of what music is, isn't it? and you're really, really making me blush. everyone in the studio is staring. if they ask, i'm not going to give them the details.

Oh yeah? A nice carb load so we can keep going a while?

All my poetry would be about you. About the curve of your lips and the softness of your skin and the strength of your thighs and how I want them wrapped around my head all the time. How your dancing makes my head spin, it’s so beautiful and full of feeling and you tell such stories with your body, I never want to not be looking.

Still blushing? I could send you a picture, then you’d have something to show everyone else

yes, so we can keep going until we're ready to drop and then fall asleep together for a really, really long time.

your thoughts are so beautiful. the fact that you see that in me and feel it, it's incredible. i don't feel like i could match that at all. i like everything about you. i love you. how do i turn those feelings into such wonderful (and enticing) images??

i might get teased.

but you should do it anyway, so i have a picture of you!

sounds pretty perfect. i have a class in the morning, but i can skip it

maybe you should... put it into dance? i could try to put it to music. if you wanted.

[ And then he sends a picture, well - a little while later, because he has to get his clothes off, wrapping himself in the fuzzy blanket Dash brought over from his place to Myung's. He leaves it hanging very low, exposing hipbones, the top of one thigh, as he sits on the piano bench, spreading his legs under the blanket, leaning back a little. ]

here. new phone background?

that's exactly what i was thinking. are we turning into delinquents?

that's a really good idea, i think. i'd like to try, you know? i mean, i have lots of good ways to express how i feel to you, but fewer to express how i feel about you, if that makes any sense.

and if i do make it my phone background and one of the other dancers grabs my phone and sees, what then? is that ok?

[ Why is his face so red! It's so red. ]

sounds like it. soon enough we're going to start day drinking and flunking everything, and net we know we'll be kicked out, just because we slept in one morning

i'll make sure we have breakfast, by the way. i need to put my clothes back on, though...

what makes sense to me is that i think sometimes you struggle using your words, but you never struggle using your body. and i don't mean that in a dirty way, although that's a way too, isn't it?

would it embarrass you if other people saw? or would you feel proud? because if it's the latter then i don't mind.

i can hardly even joke about it! i guess that's probably a sign i'm wound too tight, huh?

well, if you MUST, i guess you'd better put them back on. and breakfast sounds really good, myung.

i don't mind if you mean it in a dirty way, too. that's ok for you to say. you're right though. honestly, i don't talk to anyone as much as i talk to you. and not about things that are all that serious. it's easy to be chatty, but harder to be honest with people you don't know that well.

proud! very proud! but only if you're ok with it.

relax, baby. we know we're good ;)

i think we'll need breakfast. i'd make you a proper full one, too. eggs and bacon and homefries and beans. i feel like with what you plan on doing to me, you'd deserve breakfast in bed

i like that you can talk to me. i like that you're free to do that. i'm always here to listen, to whatever you want to say, in any way you want to say it

well then, that's fine by me. i don't care if people see me mostly naked, i feel like i'm not looking half bad since taking up going to the gym with you, right?

relaxing's the absolute hardest thing to do sometimes. but i'll try to practice it a bit.

you're making me blush talking about breakfast. i'm kind of impressed. and really, really eager to see you.

that goes for you too, myung. anything that's on your mind, you know? you can tell me. i like that thought a lot.

you've never looked "half bad" in your life! you're the handsomest person on earth. and you're doing great work at the gym.

i thought i was helping you with that, with the backrubs.

i'm eager to see you, too. can't wait for your class to be done. should i wait for you in bed?

oh, i know. i don't hide anything from you. i don't have to.

ah, no, i'm really not. but considering it comes from the hottest guy i've ever met, it's... a very nice compliment.

you are! so, so much. i'm a lot more relaxed than i used to be. but i guess i have a long way to go, too. it's not easy to just let things go, seems like.

i'd like that. we can spend some time together before dinner?

i'm glad. we had to go through a trial by fire to get together, but i think it helped, right? it makes it easier to talk about things now.

you really, really are. what can i do to convince you, hm? i'll go to some pretty extreme lengths, you know.

well, it's a good thing we have a lot of time ahead of us, then, because i won't stop.

hell yeah we can. before, during, after.

do you ever wonder if we'd have managed, if we'd started dating normally? without the whole... cali trip faking it fiasco? sometimes i wish i'd just. asked you out, from the very beginning.

honestly, i don't know, babe. it's just... some things stay with you. it's hard to shake off. i know you get that

that sounds nice. both parts, having a long time and you never stopping. anything, everything. being myung. never stop that.

i was trying to be euphemistic since someone was peeking over my shoulder! i meant before we have sex.

i don't know what would've happened if we hadn't gone to california together. i'm glad we did. i would've been happy if you'd asked me out anywhere along the road. but i think i wouldn't have understood how much it meant to me without that trip, if that makes sense.

that's something i get, yes. well, if it's ok, i'm going to help you shake them off. as much as possible.

okay. okay, i'll do my best. same goes to you.

well, i'll be waiting for you with no clothes on, we can do whatever you want. i'm in the store now.

i'm glad we went, too. i'm glad because it led us to where we are now, but i just wish i'd been... less stupid, i guess.

the fact that you even enjoy seeing me naked helps shaking it off already. i only really care about being hot to you, these days, i just... gtta believe it

i'll work hard! or work hard while trying to relax? this relaxing thing is hard.

oh, lucky me! should i let you undress me or just start throwing things off the second i'm in the door? are you buying something tasty?

you're not stupid. if anyone was stupid, it was me!

i enjoy seeing you naked very, very much. your body's perfect to me, myung. absolutely perfect.

mm, both things are tempting but i like the idea of you stripping for me as soon as you're in the door...

yeah, i'm buying smething tasty. i'm going to make you the best breakfast, you'll see.

no, you're not stupid. you're definitely not stupid, how could you have known? i really worked so hard to pretend i didn't have feelings for you.

don't you think a body like yours is better? more muscular and strong and soft at the same time? you're so goddamn beautiful

all right, in that case, your wish is my command, myung. consider it done!

i might never want to leave, you know. if you spoil me so much.

you're my best friend, myung. some things, you should see. especially in yourself. i didn't even have a clue how i felt until then and i was feeling it all along. i don't know what that says about me.

i don't know. i'm glad you like my body, but i haven't exactly been kind to it. there's a lot of damage that dancing's done.

i only spoil you because nobody else does. i mean, your parents do a little, but not as much as you deserve to be spoiled. you work so goddamn hard.

maybe it just means you're less neurotic than me?

your body's beautiful. *you* are beautiful. i'm... too soft and a little too thick

i think you might have a different definition of how much i deserve to be spoiled than most people, don't you think, babe?

me? less neurotic? i'm not so sure about that...

i could say the same to you. and i will. you're beautiful, myung. your body is perfect to me. maybe i like soft. there's not enough softness in life, i think.

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