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[gumino]

you know where to go from here.

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[gunflowers]

there are a few things, but i don't think you're ready to hear them yet

oh, listen to you going all philosophical on me

[shewn]

Why am I not ready yet?

Is it wrong though?

[gunflowers]

because you're discovering things every day, things about yourself and your feelings and all that, and i don't want to rush you

no, it isn't wrong at all

[shewn]

Oh. So I should take it slow, that's what you're saying, right? What about you?

I didn't know for sure, but I didn't think it was wrong. I want to experience that kind of thing for myself.

[gunflowers]

what about me? i should take it slow, too. i have to match your speed.

you want to pay taxes?

[shewn]

Do you want to? What you want matters too.

If I have taxes to pay, that means I earned money. That means I did something and worked hard.

[gunflowers]

I want you.

that's commendable. a little naive, but commendable.

[shewn]

That means I'm someone worth wanting.

I'm okay with being naive. For now.

[gunflowers]

you are. you so are. do you doubt it?

[shewn]

No, not anymore. But I used to and sometimes it can be easy to remember that feeling.

[gunflowers]

well, also remember that you're precious. you're precious to me.

[shewn]

You're important to me, too, Myung. I wish I could say it more clearly to you now.

Thank you. For saying that.

[gunflowers]

you just said it. how much more clearly would you want to say it?

[shewn]

I don't know. I guess that's the trouble. The feeling feels bigger than my words.

[gunflowers]

do you think you could show me, instead?

[shewn]

I think so. I could try.

Thinking about it makes me feel sort of nervous.

[gunflowers]

what are you thinking of doing? because i don't want you to be nervous around me

[shewn]

I don't know exactly. Holding your hands?

I don't think it's that kind of nervous.

[gunflowers]

what kind of nervous is it? you've held my hand before. is it... excited nervous?

[shewn]

Yes, like that.

And I haven't held them enough.

[gunflowers]

you are very welcome to hold my hands anytime you want. i'd like that.

[shewn]

You enjoy it, too?

[gunflowers]

yeah, i enjoy it a lot. which i didn't expect, if i'm honest. but i really like it.

[shewn]

It surprised you?

[gunflowers]

yeah. i never thought it would ever feel like... enough. but it does with you.